I'm over this

Sometimes, i wish people could be more expressive. I know i may have projected the wrong impression at first. But when you don't make your intentions clear in the beginning, i cannot assume that we're doing this because we have an intention. (being intention i mean... oh you get what i mean)

However sometimes we don't get what we want in life let alone in a person. This happens because we're either not interested/not ready. Can this be helped? NO. Thus we try and forget about these intentions and move on as though everything never changed in the beginning. That being just... friends.

Truthfully i can't even begin to comprehend what i am feeling because i am confused by your intentions.

Can i pretend nothing of that sort happened and return to best bud mode? I miss those days.

I am so tired of trying harder. And i cannot wait forever for you to express how you truly feel.

Even so, i cannot accept this heart because i very well do not deserve it. I just want to forget about everything that happened and start over. These things shouldn't have happened because see where it led us to now?

So now you think your facebook friends are more deserving of your rants (about me of course) than saying it to my face? :(

Friends are Fun

Myself and Apple Jess <3 mwah for the pictures Joel what is that face?? My bad. I didn't focus properly :b Are you ready for the movie?? Us? Not really. Camwhore first! Hehehe Crazy bunch of monkeys

So last week Jess arranged a sec 4 clique gathering. Out of about 10 of us only 5 showed up?? It's alright there's always a next time :) I miss the stupid old days where we did stupid old things at 15. Nothing else mattered except school and friends. Now we've all grown up and life's lessons are so much harder to take when you reach a certain age.

Just applied Tony Moly nail polish in baby pink on my fingernails. Wish i could take a picture of them and post it here because the colour is so feminine on my fingers!! Subtle yet loud. I like :)

Honestly, i don't mind clearing my collection of nail polish i bought from face shop. They are such a waste of time... Why? Because firstly they take so long to dry and secondly the brush SUCKS. The brush leaves patches on my nails just after the second layer?? That is why i stuck to manis after that getting sick of self-mani. But Tony Moly is now my favourite brand of nail polish and i'm going to buy all the colours!! Heehee.

Yesterday at the office i was bored as hell (as usual) and i decided to plan my finances! And i'm extremely SATISFIED with it. Now the real challenge will be sticking to my budget... Hmmmm

Priorites

1) Driving license
2) Work > fund license
3) More work > refer to 2)

I am very determined to learn driving and that is going to take vast amount of time and money but I DON'T CARE i have to stop procrastinating and hit registration this coming saturday!!!



Isn't this a beauty?

First

I love my holidays. No matter how boring it may be sometimes, i never regret not spending enough time in school. Simply because i don't miss school at all. (minus friends laughter and so much stupid things we do in between classes)

But i'm starting to dread my temp job that requires me to (only) sit in the office and key data into the system. So... robotic.

Therefore i cannot wait for my contract to be over. And i cannot wait to get a part-time job at a cafe. I feel my social skills slowly performing into nothing and this needs a fix!!!